If any of this is true, then know that...
"Obstacles are slabs to build our bridges."
Maria Mar
What about these scenarios instead?
Change your operating frequency. Own your Passionista!
Bring the THETA frequency of creativity to relax the physical constriction and integrate the mental fragmentation you may be experiencing.
Then allow the creative vibrations to increase your adaptability, fluidity and confidence in your deeper knowing until it is felt in your voice, your words and your interactions, becoming clarity, magnetism, resonance and charisma.
Let the Goddess in your Heart point the way!
Break free of the myths of “the way things are,” “practicality,” “people won’t value this” and other limiting beliefs that throw doubt on your Creative Feminine intuition and unique gifts.
Instead, activate your Feminine Gifts, such as creative-intuitive intelligence, emotional intelligence, body wisdom and heart wisdom to guide you in communicating your truth in a way that resonates with those who DO value what you offer.
Transmute your fear into passion to engage others.
Shake the old useless advice to “do it with fear” and instead employ your creativity to find and melt the fear, so you can do it with joy.
Strip your fear of its fangs by releasing the story beneath it while retaining its potent energy; then harness it into excitement so that you express your unique genius and communicate your gifts with passion and charisma.
Expand your leadership to innovate with joy and receive support from higher sources.
Detach from the struggle, stress and “efforting” that come from a sense that you must work hard to convince others of your gifts.
Develop instead the TETHA-ALPHA brain frequency that brings you to what Taoists call Wu wei, a state of action in non-action that helps you to align with the ebb and flow of the world, so that you can co-create the best outcome with ease and grace and instantly attract the allies, information and resources you need.
Release the voices that suppress your Goddess from the inside out.
No longer allow the inner voices in your old programs to shame your Creative Feminine until you doubt its efficacy.
Instead locate the Inner Patriarch in your psyche and dismantle the old programming. Redefine power, success, authority, strength and leadership to honor the Sacred Feminine values in your heart. Never again doubt your feminine perspective!
Drink your value to stand in your self-authority.
Go from “knowing” your value intellectually to owning your value deeply at an emotional and physical level.
You will enjoy the ceremony of “Drinking your Gifts” until you are nourished by your own genius and have no doubt of its efficacy and worth.
Step into your brilliance with the Freedom Steps.
Learn three powerful steps you can take immediately to stop the defensive reactions and the pull-back impulse.
Instead transmute that impulse into living streams of supportive emotions that allow you new fresh positive responses.
Employ your creativity to transmute self-judgment into self-value.
Release the secret judgments that make you doubt your capacity and sets you into endless perfectionist tasks.
Instead, engage your Sacred Child in play to bring safety, openness and acceptance within you, dissolving tons of resistance and building your self-acceptance and self-confidence gracefully.
These new scenarios are doable and possible.
I have shifted from the scenarios of old limiting narrations to these scenarios and now I consistently and joyfully share my gifts with the world. I LIVE those new scenarios every day and so do other women in three continents who have journeyed with me and have been able to change the obstacles they faced from the inside out, becoming the Goddess within them.
You can do it too. I'm not saying it's easy. But it's not the remote possibility it may sound to you right now. It's not done easily. But it can be done with ease and grace.
Even though, I can hear you...
"But I've tried everything!"
Yes, you've been in your creative chrysalis. But you have not been idle. You have tried to step into your new persona or creation, dipping your toes here and there... but you have promptly pulled back.
Self-doubt, feelings of not being ready, perfectionism or plain old fear start whispering... then screaming ... until you go back to the familiar. How can you break through?
You have already:
Taken more courses to get better, but though your knowledge or mastery has evolved, not so your confidence!
Gotten more training for more credentials. That should convey confidence to your prospective audience or clients, right? So why does it never feel enough? Every time you get a new certificate, there's a voice in your head saying that it is not enough. "You should get another certification in...." It never ends!
Study how to do the stuff you need to do to get "out there." You've taken some courses on marketing, promotion or even business to get clarity on what steps to take and move towards being visible. But all you get is to feel more overwhelmed!
"Fake it till you make it!" That's what they say, right? And that is how you feel... like a fake. And it shows.
You may have even done things to get "out there" ~like videos, a blog or articles. But it fell flat. Why?
So what can you do?
Is it a pipe dream? Will you die without sharing what is in your heart?
No!
To do what you long to do, be what you feel is wanting to be born inside you and to share your gifts with the world are not dreams. They are your true nature. That's why there is a painful longing in you.
And NOW is the time for it. That is why you feel an urgency.
Keep reading to find why what you have done is not working and what has worked for me and other creative women in three continents to become their dream and express their potential.
Why Nothing You've Tried has Worked... and What Does!
The main reason why the solutions you've tried have not worked is obvious when you hear it but we simply don't realize it because humans tend to look for external solutions to our problems.... and the problem is NOT external.
What pulls you back is not "out there" though there may be external challenges to deal with, like money, know-how or technology.
What pulls you back when you want to leap forward with your inspired thoughts, new ideas and creative approaches is internal. What is pulling the rope that lands you back into hiding, back into habits and back into the safety of the familiar... are the ghosts of old limiting stories!
These old stories have been embedded in your mind, physical body and energy field. Sometimes people refer to it as old programming, and it is "sort of" a program. But saying that it's a program does not help us to understand how it works or what to do.
I call these ghost stories Story Fields because understanding that they are not just memories ~but holistic energy fields containing stories that come alive in us and direct our actions unconsciously~ that is key to you setting your Goddess free.
In this short video I show you how Story Fields work in an animated illustrated story where my favorite female character from childhood ~Wonder Woman~ helps us find out how Story Fields pull us back from expressing that gorgeous Goddess and what we need to do. Enjoy it!
“Stories are the only imagined structure that can lay down actual memories, as if you had experienced the event directly in real life. This gives story the alchemical power to rewrite reality.” ~Maria Mar~
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"Aja! So That's Why Nothing I've Done has Worked!"
Exactly! You are beginning to understand why what you have done has not worked. You've been side-tracked by the external challenges believing you are solving the core obstacle when that problem is only the tip of the iceberg. You need to dive in!
Let's see how this looks in real life, shall we? ):
Mistake # 1 Doing more
You've been taking action to get confidence and clarity.
You've been taking more classes or training, spending more time developing your ideas or plans, even doing a website or preparing a course and other actions to address your situation. These actions deal with your external environment.
But you cannot change the Story Fields that pull you back and overwhelm you from that level because they are not in the external environment. They are in your internal environment.
Doing things in the physical world is what most people advise us. "Do something to change it!" But the social world out there is not the same level where the story is.
So until you change your story operating in your internal environment, the things you do "out there" will not work. In fact, they may work against you because you feel that you are running but not advancing, just digging a hole in the same place.
What works? We are getting there. Keep reading.
Mistake # 2: Trying to implement your choices with mental decisions
You've been focusing on problem-solving!
Problem-solving is how we operate must of the time as adults. We pin-point the problem and then create a plan of action to solve it. This is the rational level. It even has a different brain frequency from the creative state.
Problem-solving happens at the BETA brain frequency, which in the mid-range, when we are problem solving is 15-18Hz . In contrast, the creative-intuitive state, the THETA brain frequency vibrates at 4-8 Hz. If you go into trance or deep meditation, like shamans and yogis do, you reach the Alpha frequency of 8-12Hz.
Both THETA and ALPHA enter the subconscious. THETA also relates to memories, emotions and sensations while ALPHA can mediate the subconscious and the conscious mind.
Back to that moment when you want to move forward, to take your gifts into the world...
You are making rational choices in the present: "I want to share this."
But these choices trigger deeply emotional stories from the past that are held in the Story Fields.
And these old limiting, prohibitive, even abusive or traumatic stories distort how you see and respond to the present reality and to yourself.
When these old stories are triggered, as you saw in the video, the whole shebang is activated. At that moment you may think that you are problem solving, but without realizing it you may be thinking from a place of fear, anxiety and confusion.
That's why you feel overwhelmed.
You have escalated into the high range of BETA,which is above 18Hz. You are now influenced by the subjective feeling states in the old stories. While you are alert, you may also suffer agitation. And that becomes associated with moving forward, doing your dream or expressing your bright beautiful colors.
So now what you want becomes what you dread!!
But do you see how your creative-intuitive wisdom (THETA) is going into those memories, exploring those emotions, capable of watching them and re-imagining them?
Can you see how in ceremony, meditation and deep self-reflection (ALPHA) you can build a bridge between the subconscious and the conscious, past and present?
Doing this allows you to bring your consciousness back in alignment with your soul's wisdom and to harmonize with the environment, entering Oneness. This state further empowers you to trascend your narratives, to step back into the witness, to step out into the healer in you, to step up into your Sacred Self.
And do you see that from those perspectives you can see and change those old, limited, learned narratives?
Now we are talking!

Mistake #3: Confusing the Past with the Present and Reacting Defensively
When you get scared, overwhelmed or confused, you immediately pull back from the interaction into a familiar response.
In my work understanding how learned stories affect our present responses, I've discovered that Developmental Selves, Wounded Selves from the past and even Archetypal Selves carrying aspects of human consciousness are activated with a Story Field.
You may then be sucked into those roles and become the helpless child, the Ugly Duckling, the Orphan, the Rebel Adolescent, the impoverished Cinderella or the captive Rapunzel. Even though you are conscious of being an adult emotionally you may revert to those helpless states. And that is frustrating and confusing. It throws you out for a loop and makes you feel incompetent and less sure of your abilities.
At that moment, you may interpret the present situation erroneously because you are seeing it as the child or Wounded Self from the past does.
As a result, you may...
~ Perceive a mentor as you perceived your old teacher who told you that you were not creative.
~ See a prospect as your mom who told you that art does not bring home the bacon.
~ Hear your grandma warning you about what people say and pull back, afraid of being mocked or invalidated.
And now this becomes your current reality; not because it is what is happening but because it is how you are seeing what is happening. You are interpreting other's behaviors and intentions based on those ghosts stories.
Before I understood this, I missed many opportunities, reacting as if they were threats when in fact they were portals to new possibilities.
Let me do a "Show, Don't Tell" story that can help you understand how these stories may be pulling you back when you want to share your gifts.

I was overwhelmed...
I was starting my business and trying to set up shop, longing to share my gifts with others.
The technological problems grew to the point that I was spending most of my working hours addressing these issues. I felt like the little dutch boy, with my finger in that hole, trying to keep the dam from breaking.
The technological problems grew and multiplied. They became insurmountable... until I got very sick from anxiety, overworking and despair.
Then I had to stop and go deep within.
What I discovered blew my mind!
I realized that I was using technology to avoid presenting my gifts. How could that be? How could my fear create external situations?
As I dove deeper, I got to the core internal obstacle in my old story:
I was avoiding sharing my gifts actively because a part of me was secretly convinced that "they" would not value my offer.
Now that was my Internal Action, to avoid sharing my gifts. The belief that generated that action was that "they" ( my prospects) would not value my offer.
So I was like Penelope, secretly undoing by night (unconsciously) what I was doing by day (consciously).
But who was this "they" that I kept seeing in my mind and fearing their respond?
When I used my creative resources to investigate, Story Alchemy was born.
In that process I discovered that "they" were my family. I was placing my prospective audiences and readers in the role of my family who did not value my creativity... so of course I was terrified to present my offers to them!
My Story Fields were generating Internal Actions that actually influenced what was happening in the external environment!
This was confirmed the minute I changed the beliefs and emotions in the old story because
the technical nightmare ended!
Many women have gone through a similar transformation using Story Alchemy. They have been able to find the core internal obstacle that was anchoring their external obstacles.... and their life changed as if by magic.

So what can you do that works? You re-write your old stories!
Based on this understanding and on my decades of work using art for transformation with women, I have created Story Alchemy(tm): This system uses the power of story and storytelling to help you rewrite your old stories into the new story of you living your brilliance right now, just as you are.
Story Alchemy(tm) includes these three processes:
Story Shifting(tm): This is the art and science of tracking when a learned limiting story is activated and what happens then in your emotional and inner world. You are then empowered to shift your old reactions into fresh, creative responses.
Artchemy (tm): (Art as alchemy) is a proprietary system I created to empower you to use art as an alchemy to quicken, deepen and activate the transformation you want.
In this journey we will be using fun and easy collage making throughout the duration, generating a collage project that takes you from a closed suitcase full of self-doubts, fears and old prohibitions, hidden dreams, shelved creations, locked gifts and underground wisdom.... into your Goddess emerging from that suitcase, activating your Creative Feminine and unfolding your magnificence.
ChiDances(tm): I created this practice of intentional energy-shifting movement to help you reconfigure the old limiting energy patterns into the new patterns that support your Goddess Self, your brilliance and your bold, beautiful, bright true colors.
Enjoy the 5-minute video below, where a flight of butterflies helps me introduce you to the magic of Story Alchemy and how it frees you to live fully in the present.
The Art of Transformation
Have fun while you take your Goddess out of that Suitcase!
Change is tough. Releasing the old stories, changing limiting habits, transmuting our fear into wonder, love and passion... these changes are not easy. They demand courage, energy and self-love.
I know because I've transmuted scores of habits, old stories, learned limitations and fears in order to free my vast creative potential. I transmuted my deep-seated addiction of smoking into breathing and sound and movement healing practices. I transmuted my dysfunctional relations into self-love and self-acceptance. I transmuted my eating disorders into self-intimacy and deep exploration of the feminine psyche. I changed my belief that I had no talent for visual art into developing that gift until I am now a visual artist. I have freed my vast creative potential and in the process, unlocked my wisdom, reclaimed my gifts, owned my value and assumed my leadership... all while having fun, strengthening my joy muscle and my gratitude practice and becoming my dream!
I can mark the exact time when I was able to generate this alchemy... when I began to use my creativity and my art as tools for transformation.
Why did that change the game for me?
When you employ your creativity and use art as a transformational tool, you are immediately changing your emotional vibration.
Creativity is a way of self-mothering. It engages our Sacred Child in expressing their gifts, unfolding their potential and sharing their truth while they are accepted and loved unconditionally. This shifts them from fear and shame into feeling supported to be themselves ~which immediately begins to heal old wounds.
Creativity facilitates deep inner transformation with ease and grace. It allows us to source our hidden truths, to transmute our fear into excitement and to express our inner reality in the unique way that is our authentic self. This melts frozen, stagnant energy patterns from old Story Fields.
Creativity is a path to embodiment. It enables us to take an abstract idea, vision or intuitive knowing and express it into a solid, 3D object. It makes the imperceptible visible, the intangible palpable and the abstract concrete. Now we can explore its potential and develop it into physical reality.
Change does not happen because we know better.
Change happens because we feel different.
When we change our vibrational frequency we change our life.
When we change our story we move to a different universe.
“The Universe is made of stories, not of atoms.”
~Muriel Rukeyser~
The Power of Embodiment
What does it mean for you that changing your story and vibration changes your universe? And more importantly, how can you do it?
It means that you can fully embody your gifts, receive and stand in your value, resonate with those who will love and receive your gifts and express the Goddess in you.
In the first video above, you discovered how old programs in the form of learned limiting narratives ~or Story Fields~ interfere with your intentions and goals and hold you back from expressing your gifts and beautiful true colors.
In the next video, you saw how Story Alchemy uses storytelling, ChiDance and collage making to help you change your old stories.
While Story Shifting allows you to track down those old stories and rewrite them, you need to address the physical and energy body to change their patterns.
The second layer of this process of re-writing our stories is to change what we are embodying.
ChiDance practice helps you change the energy patterns of the old stories and allows you to flow new, fresh, creative energy to create the patterns that support the life you choose.
By now you can recognize that I prefer to show than to tell. So see how ChiDance works in the 3-minute video below.
"Embodiment is the bridge that carries you from where you are to where you want to be. Your truth is in your body. The vibration of your body is the frequency to which the universe responds." ~Maria Mar
The Transformative Power of Collage
So you've looked at two of the tools you can use to change those old narratives: Storytelling (and Story Shifting) and ChiDance.
The third tools in Story Alchemy is Artchemy ~the use of art as alchemy for life.
Artchemy allows you to make your stories visible and tangible and then release them, transmute them and reshape them inside you while you also do it externally. This is an alchemy that shapeshifts your reality!
Below I share some visuals to help you understand the healing and transformative power of collage ~when used within my alchemical framework~ to Remember (re-member or bring all your members together) who you truly are, your Sacred Self as an expression of the Divine.
I can teach women the shamanic insights and practices that have helped me reclaim my vast creative potential, release my old limitations and shapeshift my life....
...or I can play with them doing a collage that turns those teachings into direct multi-sensory experiences.
Which would you prefer? I know what I like best! LOL!
Artchemy empowers you to integrate your pieces into a wholesome self that can receive, feel, own and express her magnificence with ease and grace, standing in her authority as well as her vulnerability.
My infographic below shows part of the alchemical process I guide people through when we are doing collage that serves as a way to address and redress the old story and to align with the story you want to live.
Use the control key in your keyboard to enlarge it for easy reading.


What You can Achieve in this Journey
I am Maria Mar and I help creative women who struggle with sharing their gifts to break free from internal and external obstacles so that they can embody their goddess and their vision and go from an "I have to" life to an "I want to" life.
I have worked for more than four decades as a transformation artist, a shaman and a women's self-actualization guide.
I am an artist, author, poet, performer, storyteller and energy worker. You can see why I can help you in the holistic, multi-layered process of changing your story. I am in a unique position to have cultivated an integration of movement, art and story as a path to transformation.
I have freed my creative potential and translated it into journeys, products and offers that express my bold, bright, beautiful true colors and make a difference in the world.
If what I've share in this page resonates with you, if it makes your soul sit up and listen and your heart do a happy dance; then you and I can go in a magical journey to Take your Goddess out of the Suitcase.
Take a look at what is possible...

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This Creative Journey is...
- Self-paced. Take each step at your leisure. I highly recommend that you ENJOY the journey and stop when you stop enjoying a step or module, then allow some time, go walk in nature or do something you enjoy and when you are ready, then come back to the module. I urge you to persevere, but to honor your emotions and your body's needs. There is wisdom there guiding you. Listen deeply. You have lifetime access, so there is no rush. I discourage pushing and pressurizing yourself. Practice love and self-compassion as you move through this journey.
- Designed for creative women and for the Female Way of learning, growing and changing by an expert of the feminine psyche who has worked with hundreds of women. (That's me, lovely!): It is designed to be fun, to activate your creative-intuitive intelligence, to help you absorb, digest and integrate the knowledge so it does not stay "in the head" and to give you the tools and pace you need to BECOME the knowledge and go through the transformation with ease and grace.
- Digging deep wells to find the water. Even though we are having fun... even though creativity lightens the load... we are going deep. We are not bypassing truth, pain or challenges. This is not for those with no personal growth experience. You will need a good self-development toolbox and you will also learn more tools to go deep within the self, release what does not serve and employ your creativity to align with your Goddess Self.
- Holistic and integrated. I have worked as a transformation artist for many decades. I've guided women and youth in transformation at schools, in community programs and even in prisons. My own actualization process during my shamanic training took place through a holistic, integrated path including all the forms of art, communion with the natural and sacred worlds, and Emotional Alchemy that allowed me to change the vibration of my being by acknowledging, allowing, accepting, loving and then shifting my emotions. As you work through these fun activities, simply allow your emotions to flow and you will enjoy life-changing insights that come through play, exploration and creation.
- Designed for our times. In this COVID time we have gone through too many stressors at once. We do not need more stress!! However, we still need change. In fact, now more than ever we need to release old habits and limitations so that we become the change that we urgently need. We also need to learn how to face uncertainty through creative fluidity so that we don't get paralyzed with fear. So what to do? I've designed this journey to help you embrace the change you need to free your Creative Feminine and take your Goddess out of the suitcase.... with only a healthy level of stress (the unavoidable growing pains) and with lots of fun, inspiration, loving insights and emotional support.
- Designed to organically reclaim and liberate the Creative Feminine. Because we are using her language, the Goddess in that suitcase hidden in the folds of our darkest fears can come out. By using the creative-intuitive aspect of our intelligence and activating non-linear, holistic, experiential and emotional ways of learning and changing we inherently reclaim and strengthen our Creative Feminine.
- Requiring your full creative agency and participation. I've laid out a clear map to go from where you are to where you want to be. You are in control of the pace and the time. That's the good news. However, if you do not do the actions, you will not see any change. Here's how this looks like in terms of monthly hours:
- The Monthly Gatherings is 2 hours=120 minutes
- Two weeks a month you get new modules. You will probably spend 60-90 minutes a week going through the modules. =180 minutes
- The week after you get a new module, you work on the creative project and bring it consciously into your life. This allows you to absorb and digest the knowledge before beginning to integrate and apply it. = 240 minutes + conscious living practices.
- Then you have the biweekly Artchemy Atelier, that provides you 2 hours twice a month to finish the project with my support. =240 minutes
- The biweekly the ChiDance Lab allows you to 2 hours per session to practice reweaving the energy patterns. =240 minutes
- That's a total of 1020 minutes a month = 17 hours a month = 3.25 hours a week.
- Invest about 4 hours a week and see your work and life change and your Goddess dancing out of that suitcase!
- Doing the work generates the transformation. The rest of the transformation takes place by living consciously every week, seizing the opportunities to practice and become the insights.
- The insights are presented in the modules with me guiding you and lending you power and presence to feel supported and accompanied.
- But the knowledge is transmitted and implemented through the creative project itself, so doing the creative tasks is the path to free the Goddess.
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